It doesnt matter how I feel about anything. It doesnt matter what my heart is begging me to do... or what my mind is telling me to do.  Im being pulled in two different directions. No matter what I do... someone gets hurt. Im fucking confused. About everything. And I feel like im going to explode. 

Thats all.

Current Music: michael buble - everything.

-----------------DESCRIBE------------------
[x] The shoes you wore today: white flip flops.
[x] Your eyes: boring.
[x] Your fears: being along, clowns..
-----------------WHAT IS------------------
[x] Your most overused phrase on aim:  haha
[x] Your thoughts first waking up: god damnit..
[x] The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: personality, smile, laugh, hair, shoes
[x] Your bedtime: whenever.
[x] Your most missed memory: being a little kid and not having worries.
-----------------YOU PREFER------------------
[x] Pepsi or Coke: coke :]
[x] McDonald's or Burger King: mcdonalds.
[x] Single or group dates: group.
[x] Adidas or Nike: nike.
[x] Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla.
[x] Cappuccino or coffee: coffee.
-----------------DO YOU------------------
[x] Smoke: nope.
[x] Curse: sometimes.
[x] Take a shower everyday: yes.
[x] Have any crushes?: yeahhhh..
[x] Who are they: he knows who he is ;]
[x] Do you think you've been in love? yes.
[x] Want to go to college: yes.
[x] Like high school: NO.
[x] Want to get married: yes.
[x] Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: sometimes.
[x] Believe in yourself: sometimes.
[x] Get motion sickness: never.
[x] Think you're a health freak: I can be..
[x] Get along with your parents: yep.
[x] Like thunderstorms: love them.

------------IN THE PAST MONTH DID / HAVE YOU--------------
[x] Gone to the mall: I really dont know..
[x] Eaten sushi: NO!
[x] Been on stage: yes.
[x] Been dumped: no.
[x] Gone skating: no
[x] Made homemade cookies: yes :]
[x] Dyed your hair: nver, actually.
[x] Stolen anything: nope.

-----------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------
[x] Flown on a plane: YES.
[x] Missed school because it was raining?: no.. lol
[x] Told a guy/girl that you liked them?: yes.
[x] Cried during a Movie?: yes.
[x] Ever thought an animated character was hot?: no.
[x] Had an imaginary friend: no.
[x] Cut your hair: yes.
[x] Had crush on a teacher?: no.
[x] Been caught "doing something": no.
[x] Been called a tease: sorta..
[x] Gotten beaten up?: no.
[x] Been in a fight: no.
[x] Shoplifted: no.

-----------------THE FUTURE------------------
[x] Age you hope to be married: 23.
[x] Numbers of Children: 4..ish.
[x] Describe your Dream Wedding: as long as im completely head-over-heels in love then nothing else really matters... as long as theres a ton of family there supporting us.
[x] How do you want to die?: I dont want to plan it out or wish for a certain death. its going to happened, and however it does it does.. I dont want to know.
[x] What do you want to be when you grow up?: photographer. any kind.
[x] What country would you most like to visit?: italyyyyy.

-----------------NUMBER OF-----------------
[x] Number of Boyfriends/Girlfriends: like..4?
[x] Number of drugs taken illegally: none. 
[x] Number of people I could trust with my life: I dont even know..
[x] Number of CDs that I own: not a lot.
[x] Number of piercing: 2
[x] Number of tattoos: 0
[x] Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? like.. 5?
[x] Number of scars on my body: too many.. 

----------------FAVORITES------------------
[x] Shampoo: garnier fructis/pantine
[x] Fav Color(s): I dont know..
[x] Day/Night: night.
[x] Summer/Winter: summer.
[x] Lace or Satin: both.
[x] Fave Cartoon: curious george
[x] Fave Food: seafood pasta.
[x] Fave Movie: goonies.
[x] Fave sport: soccer & hockey.

----------------RIGHT NOW------------------
[x] Right Now Wearing: soccer uniform & jeans.
[x] Drinking: raspberry brisk iced tea <3
[x] Thinking about: my game & my spice & this cute kid.
[x] Listening to: nickleback.

---------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------
[x] Cried: no.
[x] Worn jeans: yep
[x] Met someone new online: nope
[x] Done laundry: no.
[x] Drove a car: yes.

---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN--------------
[x] Yourself: sometimes.
[x] Your friends: yeah.
[x] Santa Claus: no.
[x] Tooth Fairy: no.
[x] Destiny/Fate: yes.
[x] Angels: yes.
[x] Ghosts: yes.
[x] UFO's: ?
[x] God: yes.

------------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------
[x] Do you ever wish you had another name?: sometimes.
[x] Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?:  no.
[x] Do you like anyone?: yeahhh.
[x] Are you close to any family member?: yes.
[x] What's the best feeling in the world?: love..?
[x] Worst Feeling?: not being loved.
[x] What time is it now?: 3:36pm.


<3

yesterday I had an amazing day with my spicayyy. Shes wonderful. My day was fabulous... ice cream, soccer, pizza, coke/pepsi, spice world, attic, haha game, dress-up, pictures, & laughs!! <3

THEN... I dropped her off at her house, annddd Griffin came over! He's a cutie patootie. And we watched an episode of LOST. It was faaaabulous. We had Kettle Korn!!! Doesnt get much better than that.

Those two are seriously amazing. Id be lost without them.

Thanks to both of you!!!

<3 xxoo

So... this is my first entry with this new profile//name.
Pretty exciting, ay?

Hmmmm... lets see.. what did I do today..

School - LAME.
Soccer practice..
Shower..
Hung out with this SWEET guy.. and watched American Idol & Lost :D

It was pretty fun...

And now, I must get to bed... tomorrow I have a game. Against Mt. Clemens... [crazy bitches]
Its home at Forest Park at 5:30pm! You should go... it would be ohhhh sooooo fun!

Thats all for now..

EHH EHHH!! EHLLLL!! ELLHHHH!! ELLHH!!

:] yeahh..

goodnight xxoo <3